Sunday, December 24

I got an F.

Nothing like finding out you failed General Chemistry on Christmas Eve. This elicits a great number of feelings in me: rage, sadness, confusion, embarassment, frustration, shame; I knew it was coming. It's not like I didn't try, though. Perhaps if I liked the subject matter I might have tried more, but since I hated every bit of it, I did what I could to get through it. I did what I could, and now I know that I shouldn't try to do 3 years of undergrad chemistry. It's just not for me.

There is no failure. Only Feedback. - Robert Allen

He who has never failed somewhere, that (wo)man cannot be great. Failure is the true test of greatness. And if it be said, that continual success is a proof that a (wo)man wisely knows their powers- it is only to be added, that, in that case, he knows them to be small. - Herman Melville

Success is the ability to go from one failure to another with no loss of
enthusiasm. -Winston Churchill. (He failed 6th grade)

Learning starts with failure; the first failure is the beginning of
education. - John Hersey

A real failure does not need an excuse. It is an end in itself. - Gertrude
Stein

I feel okay with my failure; I mean, I'm not going to beat myself up about
it. The thing I cringe to think about is having to meet my teacher in the halls and wonder what he thinks of me- especially after I tried so hard and even cried in his office. I really respected him, so it sucks to not have been able to pass. I guess I just have to think that he's not judging me, and that he probably doesn't really care anyway.

Ending thoughts: I am human just like everyone else- I too have my
limits, whether I let myself believe that or not.

4 comments:

Benjamin said...

Damn, the timing itself was rather...untimely. Well, at least nobody bleeds when you get an F. You're still cool.

Leah said...

Thanks... I'm sooooo over it :0)
(maybe....)

Amit Saha said...

Buddy! Do Not let your Heart Bleed over an 'F'. These gradings are all frivolous stuff. I am expecting an 'F' in my just completed Exam. But i am fine with it. Ofcourse all of us have limits. Cheer up!

Leah said...

Thanks kind, internet stranger....