I only blog in June and December.

Thus, I must blog again before December is gone.
Let's see, Where to begin? Let's begin by talking about why blogging formatting is generally uncomfortable for me. For one, the basic journaling approach where a person catalogs their life, and what they did, who they saw, etc. is boring to me. I've never been able to do that. While some of these things might come up occasionally, and naturally, I don't like feeling like I have to cover everything that is going on. I guess this is probably a pretty good reason why I'm not going into Journalism. Also, I like grammar and spelling and composition, etc. but I generally dislike proofreading and spellchecking such an informal stream of consciousness. It feels like one might be trying too hard, and for what reason? So, I give myself permission not to care about that stuff on here. Thus, should you judge me for spelling mistakes or having unwitty writing or whatever, I also give myself permission not to care what you think in these circumstances.
And now we've reached the point in the blog entry where I'm a little bored of talking about whatever to whomever, but still try to forge on for the sake of getting all my thoughts out there and making some sort of intelligent assessment of life. Well, I've tired for now, and I haven't shared all my thoughts, but I'm also giving myself permission not to have to.
Wow, what an entertaining entry.
So- why blog, you ask? I ask myself this, too, and while I haven't come to a satisfactory reason, I think I blog because this is the space that I can talk about what I want to talk about; the space that life doesn't give me to talk about the things I want to. The space people in my life don't give me. I will try to blog because I always feel better when I write- it helps me know myself. I like the element of blogging that is like it's a journal where people can give you feedback. And for the sake of knowing myself and letting others know me, I'll try not to censor myself. Easier said that done, but here goes!

Hello blog, it's Leah.

Ah.... well! It's been a long time since I tried to blog. Being unemployed presents the perfect opportunity to start up again! While I'm pretending to search for jobs I'll just blog a little bit. Totally innocent... it'll just take a sec. Being unemployed is alright, but I have a feeling it will start to be less alright and more terrifing when the bills come do. Ah... growing up.... why didn't anyone warn me it was like this!?
Let's see, here's a boring list of things that are new with me as of late. (so we can catch up and all)
1. I think I have a stress fracture in my big toe- it all happened a month ago when I stubbed it on something but didn't think anything of it. Now, I stubbed it again and my body as reminded me that something is probably wrong. Alas- I will visit urgent care tonight and they'll probably give me some dumb toe splint that is totally inconvenient and dorky looking.
2. My hair is really short. I'm told that the summer bob is so in right now, and while I enjoy it, I know it is much more grown up and severe than it is "playful, young, sexy 20-something." Part of me likes long hair, but the other part of me rejects it because long straight hair is seemingly what everyone is lusting after. I have a tendency to reject long hair too, because we all know this is every guys fantasy. (Note: sorry about the generalizations. I know this doesn't apply to everyone.) Welll, end of story is that my hair is short and will be for some time.
3. Speaking of being a young, sexy 20- something (hahaha) I just turned 22 two days ago. It was slightly uneventful. The only cake I ate was frozen left over "chillabration" cake from Joel's birthday. No candles. No wishes. I guess I've arrived at adulthood. On a happier note, I got some really awesome gifts- thanks!

I can't think of anything else right now. Mostly I'm getting bored of blogging. I need to ease back into this slowly so I don't fry myself.
Tell all your friends: Leah's blog is back.
Yippee.

And now I know why everyone dreads writing Christmas letters.

My ego has been severly damaged. Well, just a little. I had my Dad proofread my first attempt at the family Christmas letter and I apparantly failed miserably. It was embarassing. I guess they weren't look so much for an entertaining twist on what really happened, but more of a report of the facts. Crap... now all the fun is gone and I still have to write the dumb letter.

Who needs Meth when there's Sudafed?

Okay, so sudafed non-drowsy has worse effects than I thought it would. I have not gone to bed tonight, nor do I feel like sleeping. I did do a little yoga, which was nice, but it started to get a bit too aerobic, and that's where I shut it off.... I was only in it for the relaxation. Not a very holistic approach, but I got what I wanted.

I also finished writing all my Christmas thank you cards. I got a bank fee waived (asking nicely gets you further than you may think), called Verizon and confirmed that they are stupid, went through all my emails.... you know... the stuff you do when you're not sleepy and have a huge urge to get things done. I'll blame that feeling on the approaching New Year's resolutions bit.

So, I accept that I will not be sleeping tonight/today. Nothing like a fresh cup of coffee to start a morning when it's still dark out...

All this got me to thinking: geez, why in the world would you bother making meth out of sudafed products when you can just take sudafed itself and get the same effects. Plus you bypass all the illegal end of things.

Next up: Christmas letter writing for the Fam.

Awake, but tired and sick.

I'm very awake right now. I have that problem it seems: I'm often awake when I should be sleeping... ah well, I guess that's just how us creative folks (ha!) are- our best work happens at the least convenient times. I think it's probably because of the non-drowsy sudafed I'm on right now. Little did I know that non-drowsy meant no sleep for Leah.

I have a variety of ideas of how I will fill my night. I don't think the first one is very good though. My first idea is to do the hour long kundalini yoga video that I never seem to get around to. I think it would get me going too much, though. By the way, I don't recomend ever buying a yoga video- while it may seem like a good idea at the time, what you don't realize when you buy it is that you'll never be able to re-create that yoga-esk-ness that is necessary to really enjoy yoga. There is something about being still with a whole bunch of other people that really makes it work. One yoga is my favorite sudio even though they don't offer kundalini yoga. I usually do that at school as I can. The best part about One Yoga is that they have donation based classes... which is great, because who can realy afford to do yoga?

Well, I feel like I'm rambling here, so I don't really feel like listing the other ways I could fill my night. Most likely I'll check out the yoga and get bored and fall asleep.

I like this picture of PJ Harvey. Because I am naive, I though, "oh, cool picture.. I wonder if her music is cool." She also has a cool cd title: "Stories from the city-stories from the sea" So, I previewed a few songs..but alas... I did not like her stuff. I guess it's okay, just a little too edgy and angry for me. She seems like a cool person, and fun to hang out with, I just don't really like her music. If we ever become friends I'll delete this post.

If anyone likes her stuff and wants to prove me otherwise- please enlighten me. I still want to like her.

Dear Santa,

Thank you for bringing me an iTunes gift card for $15. I used it to download the new Regina Spektor cd- I like it more than I thought I would, which is pleasantly surprising. I would liken her to a positive Fiona Apple. Great lyrics, very artsy and just pleasant all around.